It has taken me some time to process this one and to be able to write Callie's tribute. It never gets easier to say goodbye to my beloved cats. I feel it is even harder as I get older.
Callie had been on hyperthyroid meds for five years, blood pressure meds for 2 years and recently showed that she was in early stage CKD. In the past two years she struggled with her health having to have her med dosages adjusted several times.She had not been feeling well for a few weeks when we took her to the vet this spring. She had a mass on her spleen and non regenerative anemia. At her advanced age of 17, almost 18, with other health issues, we opted to keep her comfortable rather than be aggressive with cancer treatment.
Callie napping on the porch with Sam a few weeks back |
For 6 weeks after her diagnosis. Callie did well on her protocol of prednisolone, cbd oil, and other natural treatments. She was eating, using the litterbox etc. She developed ascetites in her abdomen a few days before she passed. Her body was not even processing the subcutaneous fluids anymore. I knew it was time.
Don sharing his pizza crust with Callie. She also loved rice
cakes, crackers and toast. |
Knowing we would be letting her go, we spent all our time with her the day before. She sat outside with me on the screen porch while my phone played healing music. She ate well and enjoyed her favorite foods.. it was a bittersweet pleasure to spoil her these past few weeks. She was alert and calm, taking in the sun and scenery on the ride to the vet. I had checked in with our animal communicator and Callie trusted us to know when to let her go. Her passing was quick and peaceful.. Don and I held her on our laps sending her off with love and Reiki light.. She left us Friday July 14 in the
late morning.
Callie, 2006, after we found her. |
Ten years ago I found Callie in the parking lot of the Grove Park Inn in Asheville where I worked nights at the time. It was a dark November evening when I saw this tiny cat meowing for all she was worth, running up to the people walking through the parking lot. I was concerned that the drivers could not see her so I scooped her up in my arms and put her in my car. We had 18 cats at home in our sanctuary at that time. I figured we would foster her until we found her humans.
Callie did have a micro chip but the woman who adopted her gave her to a friend after three years due to her older cat attacking Callie. Turns out the friend moved out of the area 6 months prior to me finding Callie. We don't know if she gave Callie to someone else or if Callie was on her own for 6 months. Callie was thin, full of worms, and not not in great shape. We settled her in a small room in our home to recover in peace and quiet.. Basically she just ate, slept and used the litterbox. Poor girl was worn out. By the time Callie recovered her health, we had fallen for her sweet nature and knew that we were her forever home. I only wish we had found her sooner.
Callie with her bowl |
On the dining counter |
She loved kibbles but we don't feed dry food except as treats so she would have to beg for some. Callie would sit on the eating counter overlooking the sink and stare - usually it worked and she got kibbles in her bowl. If that didn't work, Callie would run ahead of us to the kitchen and sit next to her bowl with a pitiful expression on her face. That worked every time. I called her my begging Buddha cat. She always seemed to be sitting next to her empty bowl.
Perhaps because of her background with the bully older cat or living on her own outside, Callie avoided the other cats initially. They were just curious, not aggressive. Callie loved to just be with us. She was not a lap cat but liked to be in the same room as us and eventually would feel at home enough to sit on the chair arm or sofa with us. This was her way of asking for some loving. She slowly progressed to sitting next to me on the sofa with her front paws on my leg. Eventually she slept on the bed with us down by my feet. During her last weeks she cuddled next to me by my pillow.
Crow watching |
Callie bonded mostly with me. She would sit and stare at me, with such love in her eyes! She played a little bit with nip toys. I don’t think she had any toys before or at least no one played with her. Callie loved to watch the birds outside the window or out on the screen porch. She got the zoomies almost every morning and would tear through the house from one end to the other. She stayed tiny about the size of Darby and Sweetpea – about six to seven pounds tops.
Maybe why this one is very difficult is that Callie looks so much like my heart cat Chica who passed away on my birthday in March 2013 the same year I found Callie. Callie came to me a lot like Angel Chica did. Both were lost outside at night, running up to people, hoping to find a friend. Both just let me pick them up and tuck them in my car. Callie had black tortie colors on her back so when she was curled up napping, she looked like Angel Chica from the back. It made me smile.
Chica |
Callie |
When I went out, Callie was usually the one who was waiting inside the door for me welcoming me home. She helped me write holiday cards, let me photograph her with props for my cards and blog posts, slept next to me while I read. Wherever I was, Callie was close by.
Helping me write holiday cards. |
Callie's' markings and colors were gorgeous. Her whiskers were spectacular. She was very photogenic .I had lots of nicknames for her - Callie Calico, Cal, Callie Wallie, Callie Girl, Baby Girl.
In a pensive mood. |
She loved to sit up on the dining counter overlooking the kitchen sink, watching us get the cat's food ready. Sometimes she would dose off sitting there.
Callie fell asleep waiting for food. |
With milk on her face. |
She was the most easy going, laid back sweet girl. When the other cats bothered her she walked away. She could stand her ground if she wanted but never was harsh with them. She was funny, smart, a delight to have in our lives. I do believe she was sent by Chica to be my second heart cat. Callie did not replace Chica but brought her own elegance, warmth, companionship and love into our lives. She helped me heal from the loss of Chica and filled that hole in my heart. Now who will fill the Callie size hole?
We wrapped her body in pink fleece with one of her favorite catnip toys. She is buried on our land with a bouquet of wildflowers on her grave. We will have a stone made for her at a later date.
I have already received signs from Callie from the Other Side - a pair of goldfinches came to the window, nibbling on the sunflowers outside. They came the day she passed. They did not come by before and have not since. That night of her passing, I woke up to the numbers 11:11 on my clock - a sign someone from the Other Side is reaching out. She has come to me twice now in dreams, young and frisky like she used to be years ago. Goodbye my heart, until we meet again, sweet Callie.
A video of Callie begging for treats on the counter
I had forgotten that about Chica “sending” her, this is the sweetest memorium, you were both blessed to have saved each other, my heart aches for you and dad…she thanks you for sparing her any further suffering….love is letting go…rest in peace little girl ❤️❤️❤️
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely tribute to Callie! It's so hard to lose a "heart cat," but my goodness, you saved her life so long ago! Reading your story of her gradual coming to accept that the other household cats aren't there to hurt her but that they're just curious, reminded me of the story of my cat, Tara, and how she was introduced into my household.
ReplyDeleteFor Callie I give you this Buddhist prayer, the last lines of the Heart Sutra: "Gate, gate, paragate, parasamgate ... Bodhi svaha!" (Loosely translated into English, that means "gone, gone, gone beyond, gone far beyond ... O, what beautiful Enlightenment!")
Thank you for your kind comment for Callie's tribute post. I am familiar with the Heart Sutra. It is a favorite and so appropriate for my loss.
DeleteWe are so very sorry about Callie. Sending positive thoughts and purrs to you, Dad, and other kitties.
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I just heard about her passing. Again, I am so sorry. I know all too well how this goes. The love. The heart ache of losing them. Know that I know. XO, JC
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for the loss of your sweet girl. I send my love and hugs.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Cheri, I'm heartbroken for you. I think you were right when you wrote it seems to get harder the older we get. I'm glad she found you all those years ago and that she's let you know that her spirit is okay. I'm sending lots of Universal Light and Love, and hugs too.
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Sending purrs and purrayers as you mourn beautiful Callie. Hope your good memories will help you .
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Cheri
I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful, beautiful girl.
ReplyDeleteCallie was beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss. No matter how long they live, it is never long enough. XO
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry to hear about your dear Callie. She was such a precious soul and we so lucky you found her and brought her home. Love and hugs from all of us.
ReplyDeleteSuch a sweet and beautiful tortie girl, we share in the sadness of her loss. Later today we'll send you a Memory Image for her. Paws together ...
ReplyDeleteHugs, Ann
Callie's lived her best years after she was found by you.
ReplyDeleteI don't tolerate people who seem to think any life is disposable when not convenient. Callie run free like a kitten sweet girl...without pain.
Colorful lush furs
Amazing whiskers
Loving and fun
Legacy of love for all
Incredible eyes
Elegant
I send my understanding and love to your family
Hugs Cecilia
So sorry for your loss. Sending our sincere sympathy at this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteHugs, lots of them.
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farewell beautiful sweet princess! be sure to send your mum a new heart cat
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful life you gave Callie; her fate if she hadn't come to you doesn't bear thinking about. Godspeed, Callie, and God bless your family.
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely tribute to your beautiful Callie ! We're sorry for your loss ; we send you comforting purrs and gentle headbonks. Purrs
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful tribute to your beautiful girl. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Huge hugs♥
ReplyDeleteCheri and Don, I am so very sorry. Callie was, IS, a beautiful girl, a beautiful soul. Your tribute
ReplyDeleteto her is amazing; and as we always write, please know St Francis was by her side to help see her
to her tenth life. sending hugs and loves, laura, dude, boomer, dai$y, tuna, sauce and mackerull
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ and yes, 11:11 does indeed mean, a loved one is reaching out ~~~~~
I made you a memento in Callie's honor, I will send it to the email address you have at the top of your blog, and its also in our blog post of today. Here's the URL so you can easily find it, feel free to snag the memento from there if you wish.
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So sad.
ReplyDeleteOur condolences for Angel Callie.
Callie was the most beautiful cat and such gorgeous colouring. Every day with her must have made your life brighter.
ReplyDeleteFarewell sweet friend.
What a heartfelt tribute to your beloved Callie😿
ReplyDeleteSoft Pawkisses to comfort you🐾😽💞
Fly free beautiful Soul✨
Gentle woooos from the pack here,
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